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Why did L’wren Scott take her life?

By | March 24th, 2014 | Confessions, Style Esteem

l'wren scottI heard the news of L’Wren Scott’s suicide via twitter from @socialdiva feed and all I could think about was “

And it haunted me.

The first article I read in AM New York had very little details except for the fabulous clients that she dressed and that her boyfriend was Mick Jagger. To prove how sick the media is, many news outlets, including the New York Times used headings Mick Jagger’s girlfriend…as if that defined her.

I wracked my brain and immediately flashed back to Isabella Blow’s death; yet another fantastically talented person in the fashion industry who was working in the shadows of others. But in Scott’s case…from the outside world she had ‘made it.’

Celebrity clients like Angelina Jolie, Nicole Kidman, Amy Adams, Sandra Bullock, Michelle Obama, and Madonna also counted her as a friend.

Her clothing line was elegant and adored by fashion insiders. She was respectable+beautiful.
And while she hadn’t yet become a household name, she had recently partnered with Banana Republic, so that would soon change.

And then, I wondered if her life was all that gold and glittery as her instagram feed.

Did it fulfill her from the inside, out?

The maid said she had wanted to get married and have a family.

Does it get any better than that in the world of ‘compare my fabulous life to yours?’

A lifestyle and beliefs I had personally left behind.

And clearly remaking herself by changing her name from Luann Bambrough may have factored into it.

Did she lose herself along the way? Did she feel like a fraud because her company was 6 million dollars in the red and she was living in a 5 million dollar apartment that she didn’t own, romantically tied to a partner she wasn’t married to? How many other New Yorkers are ‘faking it till they make it?’

Does it ever stop feeling fake?

Since there was no note, there is no way to really know what was inside her gorgeous head but I imagine it stemmed from a feeling of ‘less than.’ When you try to keep up with the 1% of nyc+celebrity, I think impossible to not feel like you’re constantly coming up short.

Perfection is a fraud.

That’s why I have based my life and work on what makes me feel good and of service to others. I focus on ‘real women’ with ‘real lives’ and ‘real bodies.’ It’s about progress, not perfection.

In the past, I’ve had TV producer(s) approach me who have wanted to make a ‘reality’ TV show about me and my uber-wealthy clients; flying around in private jets, having a blast, and drinking champagne. Sadly, I had to tell them the truth; that’s not my life.

And years ago, I worked with a roster of celebrities but found the work soul wrenching; leaving me feeling cold and un-appreciated so I made the conscious decision to move away from that kind of work. But usually the first question journalists ask me is, “ooooh! what celebrities have you worked with?” I now explain, that really isn’t part of my brand or message anymore. Sometimes they actually omit my comments in their article and honestly, that is just fine with me. I don’t subscribe to the notion that celebrities are ‘special people’ who don’t sweat, piss or poop like the rest of us. They are human, and to treat them otherwise is to put them on a pedestal.

Luann Bambrough’s death proves the pedestal doesn’t lead to happiness.

Comment (3)

April 2, 2014 at 9:45 PM
you are awesome and say it like it is
March 26, 2014 at 10:11 AM
BRAVA!!! I love this article. So much of what you said rings true and thank you for being so authentic, Alexandra.
March 26, 2014 at 9:27 AM
Hi Alexandra Nicely written. It is an enormous loss and suicide affects so many that's left behind of unanswered haunting questions. Dealing with celebrities is difficult with their high demands, little patience and the competitive nature of the business. It is sad for those that take their life. not to see the big picture and that "this too shall pass". Yes. Perfection is a bar that's never reached but the media glamorizes it - just look at every magazine out there. Until the shift changes, if ever, our society will continue to be plagued with perfection. I stress we are all snowflakes, beautiful in our own way and incomparable to the next. My husband is going through an in incurable cancer now. We must all look at the silver lining of every day as a gift, to appreciate our gift of why we are here and to enjoy the ride. Make every day count. Everyone's life is a book. Some books have shorter chapters than others and often shorter books are the best read. Make it what you can to the best of your ability and that is perfect enough.

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